The Cry of My Heart

When my mother took me for my first abortion at age fifteen, I thought my problems were over. Little did I know that was only the beginning of a life filled with depression, guilt, shame and poor choices. Fearful that someone would find out what a terrible person I was, I kept my dark secrets to myself for decades. The ugliness within only grew over time, spilling over in to my personal life. Not feeling worthy of anything good or nice, I made bad choices in relationships. Suicide entered my mind several times as I reasoned my two children would be better off without me. What was missing in my life, and making life so painful? One day I talked to my son's counselor about myself. He asked me one very important question. That question literally changed my life, and opened doors to wonderful places I never knew existed. Join me on my journey to find hope, peace, and love. Nancy Buzbee was born in 1950, and grew up in the tumultuous 1960's. She graduated from nursing school in 1979, and has worked as a registered nurse ever since. Nancy is a breast cancer survivor and contributor to "The Smile Never Fades" by Bill Bastas. She is the subject of a video done for her church titled "Forgiveness: The Nancy Buzbee Story", which won a Telly award in 2010. She is also a contributor to "Dancing in the Drought" by Brenda Gerland. Nancy currently lives in Austin, Texas with her toy poodle named Coco.